:: The BaTtLe FieLd ::

current mood: high spirit, motivated!!!
current song :Unchained Melody by Gareth Gates

Now, we head towards the battle field,

Believe, and our blade will not break!

Believe, and our heart will not bend!
Though the roads we take maybe different,

Our iron heart will beat as one!!

abarai renji~bleach ep. 151

Have faith in yourself, do your best, and pray for Allah s.w.t guidance and blessings.

" Jika Allah menolong kamu,maka tidak ada yg dpt mengalahkanmu. tetapi jika Allah membiarkan kamu (tidak memberi pertolongan),maka siapa yg dpt menolongmu setelah itu? Kerana itu,hendaklah kepada Allah sahaja org mukmin bertawakal. " (3: 160 )

:: All the best for the final exam ::

p/s : i adore abarai renji.. *wink

:: NerD in TraiNinG mOdE ::

current mood: exhausted [mentally]

current song: Suteki Da Ne ( Final Fantasy OST)

next sem, i am going to be a 3rd year student...

the path will become more difficult and challenging,

but i will try my best!!

Hmm....nothing much to say. (When you spend hours studying for the exam, it is kind of nothing to write on!)

Day by day, I study more for the coming exam. i'm gonna have an exam on next monday and friday.(yes, I am totally being nailed with exams!! )

“Berdoalah dengan berkata:

Wahai Tuhanku; Tambahlah daku dengan ilmu pengetahuan”.

– (Taha: 114)

I will say that a few days back while studying, I was able to clear up some things that I was confused or not solid on. I went through and looked at the examples at the end of the chapters, tutorials, and found things I had no idea before, I finally understood. [alhamdulillah..] It was nice to have a couple of ah-ha moments !!! Now if only I can have some plain old memorization moments, I'll be good!!! Insha-Allah.. *smile

While busy studying, i managed to escape and finished reading this book - P/S: i love you. It is a good book, filled with motivation, inspiration and courage to move on, especially for those who lost their love ones.

Now, i decided to finish this book [the five ppl you meet in heaven] before the semester break, which means i am going to finish this book while struggling for exams.. [ i think i am out of my mind to make this decision]

Well, time to sleep. And I am very sleepy all day, which isn't what I needed. I feel really tired and I wanted to feel energized!!

gambatte ne.. minna san!!!

p/s : belajar itu jihad. bacalah dengan nama Tuhan yg menciptakan.

:: TheiR aBseNcE hiT mE..!!! ::

current mood : i miss my family.. homesick!!!!!

current song : Perhaps Love. [ Princess Hour OST ]

Ohana...

Ohana means family. That is what Hawaian called it. Today i miss my family. it's not dat i do not miss them before, it is juz dat i miss them more than ever. i miss them badly. Their absence hit me.

my desk, with my parents on it. *smile

They make me feel whole. Gathering in the house... with all the family members there. We made lots of memories, for all of us to share. [ mom's smile+cook+bubbling. Dad's scent+ Quran recitations after prayers+sports. Sisters' gossiping sessions+stu.pid arguments+ stu.pid remarks+singing.]

I miss those things... huhu~

My youngest sis' new bolster with shin chan face on it. She took the pic herself.


When I see your faces, I smile with all my might

for when I see your eyes, the room will suddenly be bright.

Keluarga adalah medan memberi yang paling mulia.

Terima Kasih Tuhan!!

p/s : rindu dalam hati hanya Tuhan saja yg tahu~

:: Wishes and prayers from somewhere on earth ::

current mood: as gloomy as the sky
current song: Beautiful Day [Great Inheritance OST ]

From the depth of your Soul please pray

as Doas are accepted and sins wiped away

Ask with a clean heart is all Allah requires

and ask for whatever good the soul desires

.:untuk yg teristimewa:.

SALAM AIDIL ADHA

MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN

p/s : sedey x dpt balik raya.....huhu *sob *sob

:: Still AliVe !!! ::

current mood : undescribable
current song : Zinnirah by UNIC
current liking : nasi goreng cendawan + soup

Has it been this long since i have updated my blog? but now, i think it's okay bcoz I am doing it now, hehe [ gomenasai ]

~I am still alive and kicking! ~

So far.. for this semester.. my life is cruising smoothly, alhamdulillah, but a bit shaky at the middle of the journey due to some ups and downs in daily life ;) But that's what life is all about! I am becoming stronger and ready to take the challenges.. [go rukia..!!]

I asked Allah for all things that I might enjoy life.

Allah said, " No.I will give you life, so that you may enjoy all things."

and now the story begins...

Last saturday night was a blast! Thanks to everyone for being there! [darling, + the 3 unidentified creatures] We saw quite a lot of ppl and met some tourists as well.

To make the story short, after we missed the last trip of the bus to tour around the historical city [ mana lg kalo bkn melaka..!! ] , we went to jonker street. Out of sudden, someone popped up with a backup plan, suggesting that we should go cruising along the river. [ it's too glamourous to be called a cruise..let's call it a BOAT..heh ]

So.. we walked along the river, actually it's called jungle tracking to be exact!! hahahaha~~

We walked past thru a traditional village, suitable for homestay i presume. it's sooooo damn nice and unique! The landscaping is soo fine and captivating! two thumbs up!!

on the way to dataran kg air to take the boat, and we stopped for a while to check out our current location.

a long walk that shows what you are made of.

a long walk that demands our determination.

a long walk that test whether your legs are in a good condition or not, especially your knees flexibility... * wink

at last.. we made it!!! [yeay..!!!]

The boats were named after the famous warriors- Tun Perak, Tun Mamat, Tun Fatimah and Tun Ali.

cruising in Tun Perak: I never knew it was THAT beautiful along that river.The Eye On Melaka is located near the river bank.

After that.. i bet all of us had a looooong sleep + snoring all the night.. thank you guys for a wonderful moment.. *smile

p/s : kembara insan menuju Tuhan~

:: i neeD a BreAk..!!! ::

current mood: delighted, dreamy

current song: Konichiwa Bitches by Robyn

current wish: to visit a tulip farm

Currently i'm dying to visit a tulip farm. i dunno why, but suddenly i feel like wanna go..

pls take me to the tulip farms.. somebody!!! anybody!!! [plsssss..!! ]

just by looking at these pictures, they make me smile.. [ wide smile + dream mode ]

imagining myself walking thru the tulips delightfully....

LET'S PRETEND I WAS THERE, hehe

LET's PRETEND IT's REAL..!!!!

view of the walking path.

Tulips have a unique way of reflecting light, their bright colours reflect the sunlight so they actually seem to glow in the fields.

The views are undoubtly incredible ..

They are not just beautiful, they are captivating..!!!

This place is strictly for those who seek nature to nurture the heart and soul. It will heal you with every breath and will stay with you a lifetime.

p/s : dengan melihat alam akan mendekatkan kita dengan Penciptanya.. *wink

:: haPpY BiRThdAy dEar SistEr !!! ::

current mood: Joy, grateful

current song : Miracle Happens by Myra

current liking : roti pisang [nyum! nyum! ]

Happy 15th Birthday to a Special Little Sister!

You liven up a boring day

In your fun-loving, cheerful way

You're warm and caring,thoughtful too

It's great to have a sister like you.

Today, i send u lotsa luv!!

May Allah swt bless you *hugs and kisses

:: A sister is a gift to the heart, a fren to the spirit, a golden thread to the meaning of life ::

p/s : hepi bday to all december babies!!

:: SmiLe ::

current mood : courages, energetic

current song : Senyum by Raihan

You are strong

when you take your grief and teach it to smile.

I love the idea of smiling because of what you enjoyed, what you had, how you loved…..thinking about what God gave you rather than what has been taken away. He took away the things that you have and replace them with a better one. He knows us best!!


In life, God will always testing your faith with lots of thing- family, love, friendship, etc. A smile is a sign of courage and bravery when you are having difficult times.

A smile can bring joy when blue, It proves how well and powerful, A simple sweet smile can become so beautiful.

Smile for the sake of a smile,
Smile for the sake of happiness, Smile for the sake of braveness.

Now, Can you define her smile?

p/s : dear you, i want to protect you and your fading smile...

:: CinTa TaNPa SyaRat @ The UncOnDitiOnAL LoVe ::

current mood: nil

current song : cinta 5 perkara by saujana

there was an old saying :

Love is a decision.
"If you want Love, you must first Love. Love begets Love. You cannot deliver from an empty wagon. You must first learn to Love yourself before you can give Love. "

BUT THIS THEORY DOES NOT APPLY IN UNCONDITIONAL LOVE SITUATION. UNCONDITIONAL LOVE COMES BEFORE YOU KNOW THAT U NEED IT. IT COMES BEFORE YOU ASK FOR IT...!!!!

:: THE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE part 1 ::

Allah s.w.t The Almighty, Ar-Rahman, Ar-Rahim.

I asked Allah for all things that I might enjoy life.

Allah said, "No.I will give you life, so that you may enjoy all things."

Without us realising and knowing it, He gives us every thing in life than anyone could ask for. Health, security, peace, beauty, love, wealth,etc. But do we ever feel grateful? thankful? Most of us, His servant, will only come to Himwhen we are in trouble, begging Him for help. And after He granted our wishes, we tend to forget Him. [shame on us..!! huhu ]

rukia_chan mumble : bersyukurkah kita?



:: THE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE part 2 ::

Our Parents

1985 : Cheras, KL

The more you give, the more you love. This is why our parents (who've given you more than you will ever know) undoubtedly love you more than you love them.
And you, in turn, will love your own children more than they'll love you.

rukia_chan mumble : sayangilah ibubapa kita!

"O Lord, grant me your love, grant me that I love those who love you; grant me, that I might do the deeds that win your love. Make your love dearer to me than the love of myself, my family and wealth." (Tirmidhi)

p/s : hey YOU..!! I love you. Yeah! YOU! ^^

:: i am an ice cream chocolate + amber stone + white rose ::

current mood : bored

current song : say shava shava!!

boredom is in the air.. so i decided to hv a bit fun by browsing this one website which was recommended by my housies a few days ago. http://www.blogthings.com/

just pick the topic that u are interested to be tested, then answer about 4 to 5 questions, and the result will comes out instantly..most of the topics are related to our personality, and maybe u guys shud give it a try!!

below are results of the topics that i've choosed to be tested. some results are reliable, and some are craps..haha but it's fun!! *grin

what ice cream flavour are you??

:: YOU ARE A CHOCOLATE ICE CREAM GIRL ::
Dramatic. Powerful.

rukia_chan says : yup! i am definitely a choc ice cream lover!! it's my favourite!! err..in wat sense i am powerful??? *confuse

what flower are you??

:: YOU ARE A WHITE ROSE ::

You represent youthfulness and purity.

Your vibe: Sweet and heavenly.

Falling in love with you: is like falling in love for the first time.

rukia_chan says : yeah.. watever!! [ feel like wanna puke ]

what is your gemstone??

:: YOUR GEMSTONE IS AMBER ::

Creative, happy, and logical. You shine in any intellectual endeavor.

rukia_chan says : so far..i am happy+ content wit my life, alhamdulillah. but i'm a bit disagree for da creative part. huhu

What is your Japanese name??

YOUR JAPANESE NAME IS...

:: Yama Hojo ::

rukia_chan says : it's a weird name dow.. but i think it's cool ^^

watashiwa Yama Hojo desu..!!! *smile

p/s : ice cream+flower+amber = ice flamber ?? *wink

:: cAn i SeE hiM aGaiN..?? ::

current mood : impulsively anxious, huhu

current song : keluarga bahagia by saujana

Syawal 2007. I remember it so clearly, as if it just happen like yesterday.
The feelings are still there, and I still feel sad, happy and miss every moment with him every time I think about it. *sigh

I covered all my feelings and let no one know what was going through my head. They didn’t know how sad I really was at that time during raya. I just kept thinking how it felt to have someone get so close be taken out of my life. I never dare to think that I might not ever see him again when the time comes. But i am really grateful+ thankful that he is still with us during syawal.

:: atok yang semakin uzur ::

Dia adalah 'HARTA' milik keluarga kami yg paling bernilai. *smile

He smiles sweetly like always. He’s speaking like the old times. He’s walking the best that he can. His spirit is like an angel. His courage is mightier than a lion.

p/s : looking forward to see him again during hari raya aidil adha!! [insha-allah..!!! ]

:: NeW sEmEsTer BegiNs..!! ::

current mood: courages
current song: i'm alive..!! by celine dion

this semester is short,

so everyone should

live happily :: study creatively :: change courageously ::

all the best and take care!!

:: UKHUWwaH : indah bagi yg menghargai dan mengerti ::

current mood : moderate
current song : I think i'm in love with you by Mocca

Take a look at your friends the next time you are together. You might be at that person’s funeral some day. Or they might be at yours. One day, we’re all going to die.

But the most important thing is, in every meeting process, we get to know new ppl a.k.a strangers with different attitudes, and with different ideas too. Through out time, we make friends with these ppl so called 'strangers'--having fun together, spending splendid, precious moments together, and getting to know each other better.

And later, it's time for parting. We say good bye to our friends, wishing them the best of luck in their future undertakings and hoping to see each other again.

"it's okay, we only part to meet again." ~John Gray. [that's true. *smile ]

Look closely at your hands and realize that one day those will be a pair of old hands before you know it.

life is short, so make it sweet.

life is like an ice cream, enjoy before it melts.

but don't forget, we still have a long journey to go after we die. an eternal journey. be prepared!!

p/s : ukhuwwah itu indah jika bertemu dan berpisah krn Allah.. setuju??

:: The LaSt tEn dAys ::

current mood : alive, certain

current song : Selamat Hari Raya by Saloma

RAMADHAN IS LEAVING IN 10 DAYS...

WHAT WILL YOU DO?

Ramadhan is the best time for inner reflection, devotion to God and self-control. During this month, the syaitans are in chains and thus we are free from their 'seductions' and invitations to perform all kind of actions that will lead us far from Allah s.w.t.

Ultimately, in this month, we are on our own, to decide whether we want to stay away from all that is forbidden or not. To be patience in facing all His tests. To be patience at the time of temptation. To be patience in fulfilling the commands of Allah. REMEMBER, The choice is in our hands.

RAMADHAN IS LEAVING IN 10 DAYS..

WHAT WILL YOU DO?

And we look for the Night of Power (Lailatul Qadar),
Better than a thousand nights.
That extra-special night,
When we ask for all that we desire,
Wishes upon wishes
And prayer upon prayer.

p/s: nantikan dan manfaatkan Lailatul-qadar,penghulu segala malam.. renungkan, bagaimana kita mengisi ramadhan kali ini?

:: it'S rAiniNg..!!!! ::

current mood : happy bcoz it's raining!!!

current song : Eyes On Me by Faye Wong

2nite it's raining. i really love when it's raining.

Rain. It brings out all the sweet memories about someone. *grin

Yes, the rainwater is streaming down, tap-dancing on the roof. Ordinarily a lovely sound. I think the sound will be nicer if it's the dead leaves instead of the roof..heh

While studying for finals, i'm listening to the racket outside, reminding myself that it's all a part of nature. Perfectly, well, natural. Nothing at all to worry about.. [bunyi dan bau hujan sangat mendamaikan..]

p/s : bau ujan yg wangi... i like~ saya suka hujan.. anda pula bagaimana?

:: finally it's over..!! ::

current mood : happy, satisfied
current song : separuh masa by the lima

Life is CRAZY, and finally it's over..!!!!!

Moments with tonnes of super difficult, tensing assignments is finally over. yeay!!! *cheering +relief

I learned something from it. Determination. courage. team spirit. taking care and to concern for others. Alhamdulillah.

my grupmates. going to cherish the moment we had together.. *smile

" Yesterday I dared to struggle. Today I dare to win. "

~Bernadette Devlin

With courage you will dare to take risks, have the strength to be compassionate, and the wisdom to be humble. Courage is the foundation of integrity.

As I move forward from here and into my future I will take with me what I need and will let go of all that is unnecessary baggage. Imagine Me…driving into my future and steering myself along a favorable course. And now i am focusing on my finals. to be well prepared, inshaallah.. hopefully..

~the cube

(we are proud of it!! )

p/s : i'm craving for kuih cara berlauk..huhu

:: The month of mercy has begun!! ::

current mood : calm

current song : nil

>> In the name of Allah, the Beneficient, the Merciful <<

As I look searchingly into the sky

I look for a sign from Allah, The Most High

People think I'm crazy sitting in this cold

But I quest for something more precious than gold

For mankind this sign represents something great

but for the rejected one, it fills him with hate

Suddenly out of the darkness the moon does appear

the whole world rejoices 'Ramadan is here!!'

Ramadhan. This is month that Allah s.w.t closes the doors of Hell and locks up the Devil away during the entire month. This was the month that Allah s.w.t delivered the Holy Qur'an upon His last Prophet, Muhammad (Peace Be Upon Him).

Fasting Ramadhan is one of the five pillars of Islam. Yes, it's true. Ramadan is not about just being thirsty and hungry during the day and then feasting on every thing at the time of Maghrib. That is not the goal of Ramadan...!!!

CHEESY WEDGES> temptation during fasting..isn't it??

I really hope this would be the month that would truly change a person's life from bad to good, from worst to fair, and from better to great.
I really hope and wish that everyone would just think for a second about what the Ramadhan spirit is all about.

Try to share more,
Pray more,
Do more,
And give more.



p/s :Glad to be back and away from all those scary, tensing, horror assignment. *relief . And now I can get back to what I love and makes me feel like I am doing something in this life of mine. SELAMAT MENJALANI IBADAH PUASA..!! =)

:: reMembEr YesterDay, But Live FoR TodAy ::

current mood : courages, motivated

current song : segenggam tabah,by UNIC

I ask Allah to spare me pain. He said, "No. Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me."

sometimes life can be so EASY
when you believe there's more to it

and if you talk about blessings

that you got from Allah

and sometimes life can be so HARD

when u think too much

about the hardship that you faced

and well being of others

Sometimes, and somehow.. i wish if i can return back to my past, to ammend my mistakes, and to undo any faulty in many ways. To vanish and to erase all the pains and tears. To experience all the good times and to feel alive again.

But when the reality grips me, i know it will never happen. My close friend once said, "Happiness keeps you sweet, Trials make you strong, Sorrows keeps you human, Failure keeps you humble, Success keeps you glowing and Allah keeps you going...". And yes, i agreed with that.!! *thanx dear

"ooo Lord,please grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, courage to change the things i can, and wisdom to know the difference.."

remember yesterday, but live for today *smile

fighting!!!

:: merdeKa.. MiLiK siApA..??? ::

current mood : dull, fatigue ( i'm seriously ill, so everythings look blur & colourless.. forgive me..)

current song : no song at the moment

Just some wisdom delivered by Shaykh Hamza Yusuf. I like this quote, so I decided to share it with the world..

The hidden message is: never let your eye to find and search others' fault, because they too have eyes.



Anyway, last nite I stumbled upon the photo below,

entitled "Love for Parents". I just love it!!

Caption: Carrying Zamzam Water to his father who was

sitting and reading Quran.

Credit to Alsay on Flickr.

p/s : merdeka milik siapa?

:: hePi BirThdAy Mom !!! luv ya MUax!! ::

current mood : contented and blessed

current song : Your Mother by Yusof Islam

28 august

today is her bday. my mom. thankful she is still alive. here with me. to face the upcoming days/future together. praise to God. thank you God.

dedicated to my mom:

M is for the million things she gave me,

O means only that she's growing old,

T is for the tears she shed to save me,

H is for her heart of purest gold,

E is for her eyes, with love-light shining,

R means right, and right she'll always be..

Put them all together, they spell "MOTHER,"A word that means the world to me.

I Love You Mom!

Thank You Mom-for bringing a smile to my face every time I think of you.

happy 46th birthday mom!! luv ya muax! *hugs and kisses*

p/s : pls comment my simple poem, i'd luv to hear your thoughts !! *smile*

:: CoNfeSsiOn ::

current mood : so..and so.. (apa tuh??)
current song : my girl OST

FRIENDship CONFESSIONS

1. Are you jealous of one or more of your friends?
= yup,coz they are smarter than me, plus hardworking..!! damn it!

2. Are any of your friends taller than you?
= yup walaupn aku mmg dh tinggi

3. Do you have your friend's phone number memorized?
= ade,only my close frenz

6. Have you lost or forgotten a friends phone number?
= sudah pasti, there's tooo many things 2 remember.. trapezoidal rule, turbulent flow formula..huhu

7. Have you been to most of your friends houses?
= x jgk r.. but last 2 days i went to one of my besties' house..best sgt!!

8. Do you love most of your friends?
=yes, i do love them. “Sesiapa yang tidak mengasihi, tidak akan dikasihi!” (al-Bukhari)
"Tidaklah sempurna iman sesiapa dari kalanganmu, sehingga dia mengasihi untuk saudaranya, apa yang ia kasih untuk dirinya sendiri."(Hadith Muslim)



LOVE CONFESSIONS

1. Do you currently like/love someone?
= nope. negative.

2. Do you want to kill one of your exes?
= nope. really thankful coz i met them.

3. Has one of your crushes ever called you self-centered before?
= nil. saya baek..hihi

4. Is it possible that one of your friends might have a crush on you?
= haaa?? never bother to think about it.

:: MenTaLLy eXhauSted ::

current mood : sleepy, sooo not in the mood, mentally exhausted to be exact

current song : nil

August 2007 . Busy like hell. hectic. my life change,totally changed.upside downs. *sigh

studies. tonnes of assignments. midterm exams. lab report. again-- assignments, exams, assignments. studies.studies. studies.

it's a student's typical life.yes, i admit it. but not for dis month... it feels like my daily life is totally reshuffled, readjusted, rescheduled, rearranged.

i assure you, at the end of this month, i am totally changed.

transforming from a human, to a panda. ( i'm having a serius eyebag problem..huhu)

and that uninvited eyebags makes me look like a panda, in human version,says my frens.. (damn it! )

p/s : apakah manusia mengira bahawa mereka akan dibiarkan hanya dengan mengatakan " kami telah beriman" , dan mereka tidak diuji? 29 :2